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Just some memories

Sweet song~

When i was half studying this morning, suddenly i was reminded of the golden old times exactly one year ago when i used to study with my old friends back in Convent in Secret Recipe. Everyone was studying the same subject, heading towards the same exam at the same place. Enjoying? =)

But now, everyone is separated. North, south, east and west. All heading towards different exam, different schedules, different classes, with different study groups or no group.

Previously, a group of friends lying on each other shoulders, relying on each other. Now, each comes to split roads, reaching a time to walk in their own appointed road, where each needs to learn to carry herself on in this battle of exams. Independance?

Well, at least, this is the exam month. I’m just glad to know that this battle is not going on just here, but in that north, south, east and west too.

All the best in your exams!

Basking in Him

As i look to You,

i see Your majesty,

i see Your radiance,

i see Your shining armors,

And i looked down,

From the blaze of Your powerful light,

the most beautiful light i’ve ever seen.

My heart thumped,

Not of horrified fear, but of reverence fear,

Reverence awe of Your beauty!

My heart thumped yet again,

In unison with His, Jesus Christ,

The Messiah,

The Lord of Lords,

The King of Kings,

The Maker,

The great I AM!

Yet He is my Lover,

my Bridegroom,

stretching forth His arms for me,

Overflowing with His abundant love,

The love which is burning in and out of Him,

Abrupt joy burst within me,

Flaming deep inside my heart, my soul, my being,

Tongue, locked at the sight of His hem,

Unspeakable.

Kneeling,

Before His feet

Not wanting to depart

Or be snatched away

From this precious moment

Where i can just be still

Basking,

In His awesome presence,

In Him.

Love your brain, poker face

nice version of poker face by chris daughtry!

love his style of music!;)

Anyway, wanted to update a longer post, but  i guess perhaps next time.

Exam is coming very near now. My mind always tells me that i have 2 more weeks to exam but in reality, its just 1 week! Where did the time goes?

I don’t know how my result will be like though for this exam. Felt my brain is pretty empty actually (not bursting with infos until u cant stuff in anymore, amrit!). Perhaps i’ve not reached to my full usage of my brain. Got to work in opening up my brain to be more active now!

Sometimes when i read certain things in the text book, somehow my brain will reject certain infos telling me that its no use to memorize that, that its only needed in a higher level of education which in reality, form 6 IS the higher level of education!(man, its the 3rd toughest exam alright)

I guess, i’m still stuck in form4 and 5 mindset — anything that looks weird and complicated should not be touched because it wont come out for exam. Not so for form 6 though.

Alright, i guess enough about my brain..haha!

p/s: No matter how many times u fail, the clock will still be ticking and life will still has to go on. So, everytime u fall, try again! *just a thought..but well, i guess when one’s heart has fallen and broken, it requires a lot of love to put it back to the right place. We’re humans after all. This thought might be wrong, but well, just pondering.*

“The journey of the heart

is one of the most complex mysteries there is –

the elation and the sadness,

the hoping and the waiting,

and for many,

the unutterable disappointment

that makes us not want to feel anything anymore.”

Tear Down The Walls – Hillsong United

Funny how hard i’ve searched this video for a long time..perhaps months, and today, the least expected moment, but also the moment when i needed this the most, the video showed up and the lyrics spoke to my heart.

Thank You Jesus.

It’s called..

Tear Down The Walls – Hillsong United

VERSE 1:
Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

PRE CHORUS:
And I dont need to see it to believe it
I dont need to see it to believe it
Cause I cant shake this
Fire deep inside my heart

VERSE 2:
Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is LOVE
There is HOPE and this is REAL

PRE CHORUS 2:
Cause I dont need to see it to believe it
I dont need to see it to believe it
Cause I cant shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

CHORUS:
This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
LET LOVE TEAR DOWN THESE WALLS
That all creation would
Come back to You

Its all for You

CHORUS 2:
Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

BRIDGE:
Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

Let my eyes to be all on You! You’d brought me out from this pain and You’ll bring me out again, tear down these walls oh God! For You are the only One who understands me Lord, not even me myself!  You are Hope and You are REAL! Glorious Father in Heaven!

“No regrets inside of me, just to find i’m at Your feet.”

War cry!

Sharpening the sword
Polishing the body armour
Thickening the shield
Preparing…

This is the time
No more regrets
What He had put in the heart
this is the time
The time to prepare
Declaring a war cry!

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;

perplexed, but not in despair;

persecuted, but not abandoned;

struck down, but not destroyed.

We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus,

so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.
[2 Corinthians 4:8-10]

Sammi Cheng’s Beloved

This is my first post after me being 18 years old on this earth! =)

Today, i read a news from Reader’s Digest about Sammi Cheng. It had been a long time since i last heard her news. I remembered the last time i saw her on newspaper, she was captured in the photo with cuts on her leg(the rest of her body was covered) and she was really thin! Then, i think she was not really in the newspaper for some time as she retreated from the entertainment world for a while. Until today, i saw her again, but,  a different person.

Previously, i’ve always watched her movies! Chinese comedy movies especially. Haha. Real funny one! Well, she seemed to others that she’d gotten everything she needs, fame, MONEY, men, AWESOME VOICE! But, i’ve never really thought into her life, the life of a multimillionaire singer and actress.

In Reader’s Digest, she said(i’m quoting from memory, sorry if its not that accurate, but the end part i remember.=) ),

“Even though i’ve everything, i’ve achieved all i wish for, but i felt hollowed in the inside.”

I was shocked to know that she’d gone weeks?(issit two?) before without eating anything but 2 apples! That was to make herself slimmer.

Anyway, when i read her news today, the whole different Sammi Cheng, brighter, more cheerful, lively, filled with joy and purpose in life…..indescribable feel about her except i know and i can feel that she’s just filled to the brim of her cup in her heart…joyful…i felt really happy. i feel touched. happy.

..that she encountered with Jesus, the lover of her life, knows and experienced the tremendous love from Him that really changed her life 180 degree during her retreat!

Not being bounced back and forth emotionally in the entertainment world which hungers for perfectionism, attention anymore because God is sustaining her right now and because God loves her so much so that He brought her out from her old shell which revolves around her fears to Jesus’ arms! How wonderful and awesome!! Sammi Cheng, =)!

Her testimony truly made me again reminded that their lives, the lives of actresses, singers are also precious in God’s eyes, are also every bit as real as our lives here eventhough they are in a lot of movies acting. But they still do have REAL life problems, REAL needs, REAL hunger, REAL difficulties, REAL insecurities and just are REAL humans with feelings!

Touched and the kitchen

One of the things that touch me a lot is when i see an individual or a group of people who trust in the Lord with all of their hearts, who continue to press on no matter what happens, who give thanks to the Lord in all circumstances, who serve God boldly, faithfully, selflessly and humbily, who encourage his/her fellow comrades in Christ to push on forward, who love those who are unlovable, and who loves God with all of his/her heart, soul, mind and strength!

I really thank God that He had placed or let me know this group of people who are in those categories in my life. It has been a tremendous blessing to me and a great encouragement for me to push on forward to achieve great things for God, to be radical for God! It has been a really humbling experience to know them.=)

I just knew a news from my college friend’s blog, and i felt really touched in a way. Won’t go into details here, but it’s about a CF event. When i heard of it, i felt my heart practically fell down an inch because i know a lot of efforts have been placed in this one event or rather i know and had experienced that kind of feeling. But then, as i read on to the next part of the blog post, i felt humbled to see them to continue to hope upon the Lord, and to look to Him even when circumstances failed or looked bleak.

But, there’s hope because God always has a different plan than ours. Perhaps through this fall, we’ll even cry out to God more and pray even more crazily, then started to even more depend on God! That’s what it is, to totally depend on Him and to go with His Spirit, and to trust in HIS judgement and view of things!

Anyway, i think i’m starting to like the kitchen a lil bit..=P Mum and dad are not at home, so practically, it’s a moment when freedom is limitless in this house of mine.. x) Mum does not like us the children to eat something that’s not healthy of course even though it’s something that we’ve not eaten like 3 months?

So today, when freedom is limitless, i suddenly felt the urge to eat something that i can rarely eat, or something that i won’t eat because i’ll feel guilty as mum is here…

But, its a different case today. x) I have the freedom..and thus the freedom to cook what i want to eat!and given the condition where my cooking skill is, i only can cook—-the Korean Spicy Mee!(which mum hates to see us eat..hehe!)

As I chomped down the food gleefully, I was dreamily agreeing that..

“Kitchen is truly a paradise for those who are good in cooking and who love to eat!”

His side of story! =)

School starts back again tomorrow!! WEEEEE!!!!–> because school is starting

and OH MAAAAAAN!!!–> because exam is COMING!!!

Really ! HOliday is so freaking fast!!!….erm..yet slow in a way..hahaha! because many had happened,… like many others days too!xD  And i’m so excited of what God is gonna do in our church, our schools and our city—people!! Its really time to hold the baton even tighter and focus more forward so we wont slack and be distracted elsewhere!!

I’m so grateful for the friends that God had placed in my life! Truly, you people are a blessings to me!=D

Anyway, today i just felt really encouraged to continue to pursue on to what God is doing in our midst and will be doing! I realised that there are times Satan try their hardest to put thoughts of discouragement, the impossible feelings ETC in my head, and i fell to some of the traps!!“Great“…

but today again God in His grace open up my mind to His side of story–which is always full of reaping the harvest that will be and have been sown! Even now, there are already mountful of harvest to be reaped! So what i should do now is to get my butt off the cushion, and start working on the harvest!!

WEE!! FOCUS PEOPLE! Start leading a holy life which pleases God! For He is not only a God full of grace and mercy, but He is also HOLY!! The great I AM! Remember that and work towards it!

Ohyeah! I just came back from this Youth Mission Conference in Melaka called thePlan09! Really thank God that He’d arranged me and Charlene and Celeste and and Genesis and Jonathan to go to this conference, when i thought that no one knows about this in church!!Thank God for Pastor Ann aso la..ahhaha!

Had been planning to go for this conference since January and really thank God that He allowed impossible circumstances to be possible–in this case, i WENT! Anyway, this conference had really opened my eyes to a wider picture of this word ‘MISSION”. And really, im feeling that mission is very important than ever before in a Christians’ life! This is what we are to do!!in every single day of our life..!

We, Christians do have a burden to carry, people! Not being blinded and too comfortable in what the world offers–the comfy life that places no thoughts of what other people are going through in their life, and also that places no effort and no vision to see God be glorified and worshipped everywhere!! It’s time to rise up YOUNG PEOPLE! IF you are young, you’ll shout AMEN now or say AMEN AT  THE SHOUTBOX BESIDE! xD

I’m not gonna lose the vision and forsake this exciting journey, this journey that is full of abundant joy because He is with me, partnering with me! I’m so honoured and privilaged to be having this relationship with Him! But hey!! you people out there TOO have a privilage to know the God of all universe and to partner with Him!! And please don’t say, it’s only for the “holy” people…>.<”" haha! i get this a lot!

Anyway, maan.. initially i just wanted to update my blog with just two or three sentences, but ended up with eight or nine paragraphs! xP

SO i’ll leave you people here and all the best to everyone!! whether in exams or friendships or relationships etc….

God bless you!

Oh! before that, a few pictures here to decorate my blog a lil…hehhe!

my first time wearing a punjabi suit! thanks to Amrit who pinjam me this!!

post it up again though lene's blog has it because i simply love this picture!! i love you people!! and love those states!!!

my coolest group with the coolest group leader!haha! love you people too!!

still drooling over this durian ice kacang!! when can i go to malacca to meet my lover-kacang???

Ciao!

Looking for you – kirk franklin

i LOVE this SONG!

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*dancing around*